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Tuesday, February 21, 2012

What's It All About?


What’s It All About?



          As I said with my first entry, this blog is about my life. My life and the things on my mind: it is also to help me with writing as I am attempting my hand at writing a novel.  This is something I am supposed to do on an almost daily basis to help get the juices flowing.

          Today I decided to watch a movie that always reminds me of happy times. “On Golden Pond” I watched it the first time with my grandparents Scootie and Papaw Jack. This movie always reminds me of my summers in Hot Springs, AR with my dad’s family.  I had such a good time on Lake Hamilton and thinking about it makes me miss that time in my life so much I literally ache.  But this entry isn’t going to be about me crying about the things in life one losses along the way, it’s more about me coming to an understanding about life in general.

          When my Dad past away I was mad. Mad at how things ended; just when we had started to patch up a rocky father and daughter relationship he was gone. Mad that God had taken my Dad- when myself and my sister Morgan still needed him. However, I have come to the conclusion that it was a lesson. Let the little things in life go. Life isn’t about winning and losing, it isn’t about big houses, fancy cars, and badges of honor that need to be collected along the way. Life will march right past you while you are busy. Busy doing whatever is going on in your life, busy working at jobs or raising kids. You put off family trips and adventures because you are saving money for random things. Thinking, “No I will go on that vacation in a year or so I need to save for a bigger house or car…” and true you shouldn’t be irresponsible with money and set yourself up for disaster but you shouldn’t be so frugal that you never have any fun either. Because when you reach the end, memories are all that your left with and the most important thing that you leave behind.

          From now on I will continue to try and live in the moment, savor the time with my family and close friends. Keep striving to find the good in each day, no matter how bad it seems. Keep remembering to look for Dad on the days when I know he’s checking in on me.

          Sorry for the heaviness but it was on my mind today.



          Love to all-

Stephanie

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